I did want to talk to you about something. It's about trying new things. It's been rather obvious that I haven't been doing as many new things for awhile now. It's not because I am scared, ok maybe at times the prospect of doing something new is a little frightening, do you realize how many mistakes can happen and you lose a hand? Dramatic much? Most of it seems that acquiring new skills are forced upon you, especially when you are homesteading. Dressing out my rooster for the first time wasn't something I planned, it was survival of the fittest. It was either me or him at that point. Braiding and storing onions wasn't planned, rather a necessity because of the shear numbers of onions that decided to grow.
Soon I will be shearing a sheep. The blame will lay solely on one Tales of a Texas Farm Wife, for forcing the thing on me.
I do many things for the first time, not because I want to, but because I have to. I know that many people will tell you that you don't have to do anything you don't want to. Those people are missing something. I use to feel that way, but now I see it as a selfish statement. Like anything in life, if you decide rationally that you will be doing something, like your career, you do it. And you do it with zeal. Wow, I am spiralling uncontrollably into a lecture about responsibility. I loathe being a grown-up.
I am not going to turn this into a lecture, this isn't about you. It's all about me me me! {stomps foot}
If I am going to be successful in my choices, that means I will have to take those shaky leaps into unknown territory, not just allow those things to fall on me. Unfortunately I cannot foresee my own future {that ability might be a tad scary}. And taking the bull by the horns, so to speak, might lead me to being gorged. Not an easy decision.
What I must do from time to time, is take a step back and actually see what is happening, not just in the moment, but what has happened in the past, and what paths lay in my future. One of those paths will involve you. Me? What!?! No, not you coming out here and dictating what happens, but the things that you say to me, the words you use can be encouraging or detrimental. Either way, you do talk to me, and it helps me figure out which direction I should head off in. I either want to prove you wrong, or make you proud. It is there, and I take it in.
My mistakes will continue. My adventure will be long. The ideas that come and choices I make will scar me one way or another. And I have to wear them with more pride than anything else I have ever worn, that is if I want to survive this.
New quests will be determined by the roll of my six sided dice.
11 comments:
So what are you going to do with the wool from Donkey? I'm assuming the name hasn't changed ;-) Does this mean you're going to become a spinner? A weaver? Is this the new direction you speak of?
Mary, Spinning is on my list of things to learn. First though we have to get this whole shearing thing down first. I am assuming, form what I have read and been told, that we are not likely to have a spinable batch our first go around, so stuffing the wool into something will have to do. And yes, his name is still Donkey. :D
Don't sell yourself short about the shearing - you may be surprised. Maybe Donkey will be willing and the wool will be spinnable...Good luck and let us know how it goes.
I sheared for the first time this year too! It was hard and I forced myself through it (especially after I sheared "wrong" and cut my ram). I'm no expert, but it seemed to work better if I didn't hold any wool around it. if I kept the blade angled slightly upward helped too. I'm sure I "butchered" the wool, but it was a learning experience. It does make great stuffing, LOL!
Now I need to get brave and dress out some roosters (we have way too many!)
No one can accuse you of being a timid soul, Phelan. I look forward to this adventure.
May it go a bit smoother than the Turkey last Thanksgiving...
:)
Thanks so much for the link to BlogsWeLuv! I enjoyed your 10 Questions! And thanks for spreading the word. Everyone really enjoys the 10 Questions posts!
Have a great day!
Great answers.
Got my books today from the contest!!!!!
Hey, at least we didn't give you Stupid a.k.a.
Haggis!Boi!
-M
Talk about bikes all you want ~ they can look great ~ they're part of you, I can appreciate the looks of a bike, I love adventures, I just hate them irrationally. Posting from the library, will try to catch up on the readfing at home as time is almost up :(
Mary, thank you and I will.
Gina, See, see! That's what I am worried about, cutting him. And once you have set your mind about the rooster, the first time is the hardest.
Fool, oh I am one at times. Same here.
abbagirl WOOHOO!
Marina, and I am grateful for that. :D
Killi, will do.
I do things because I have to, too. For me, they aren't necessarily things I'm doing for the first time, but things I'm afraid to do.
The actions might seem minor or foolhardy to some people, but they are milestones to me, markers along the path of returning to a life that isn't ruled by fear.
Post a Comment